My measurements from this week:
|Week 9: 110305||215.6||27.6||59.4||N/A|
|Δ from last||+0.7||+0.1||+0.5||N/A|
|Δ from start||-12.9
Up in all areas this week. Actually, BF% comes out to be 27.55% but, rounding up for the chart . . .
Since BF# went up less than Weight, that means I gained a little bit of muscle. I’ll take that as a silver lining in a week where numbers were no fun to look at.
On another plus side, I feel good. I think my body is changing for the better. I just wish I would quit sabotaging myself and would put up positive numbers again.
I feel myself slipping into old patterns: game the program, cheat the diet, etc. In this case it means doing things like breaking down and having a cheat “meal” on Thursday night (popcorn at the movies) and eating too many Atkins bars. I tell myself that I can exercise more and make up for the damage done, or that the supplements will fix my mistakes and it’ll still work out.
It never does. I end up plateauing — not getting better but not getting worse, either. And I know that if I quit the program I’ll definitely get worse so . . . Trudge, Trudge, Trudge.
I’ve done it before — about 8 years ago with smoking. Just decided and quit, cold turkey. Worked out fine. So well, in fact, that I can have an occasional cigarette nowadays and not get the cravings again which I used to feel. One and done no problem.
Weight-wise, on the other hand, right now I want to lose weight; I want to be more fit; I want to be lean and able to run a marathon . . . but I guess I have not turned the corner yet from want to need.
Someday I will and things will get easier. For now though it’s trudge trudge trudge and keep my ass at least moving so I don’t fall behind even more.
(How’s that for a motivational “Thought of the Day”? =D)
Breakfast: at IHOP – waffle with butter and syrup, two bacon, two eggs over medium
I took my Cissus and grapefruit juice beforehand and exercised after 90 minutes.
Dinner: El Chico cheese and onion enchiladas, tortilla chips, queso, Cissus
Dinner 2: Double double Whataburger with a small fries
Other food throughout the day: two strawberry poptarts, some veggie chips, cookie, popcorn, Sprite Zero with raspberry flavoring